majiko – Kuruoshii Hodo Boku ni wa Utsukushii Lyrics + English Translation

“Kuruoshii Hodo Boku ni wa Utsukushii” is the 4th track from the “Sabishii Hito ga Ichiban Erainda” album released by majiko. It was released on June 19, 2019.

Details

• Title: Kuruoshii Hodo Boku ni wa Utsukushii (狂おしいほど僕には美しい)
• Genre: Electronica, Pop, Rock
• Language: Japanese
• Released: June 19, 2019
• Performer: majiko
• Composer: Michael Kaneko
• Arranger: Michael Kaneko
• Lyricist: Hiro-a-key

Lyrics

doko ni demo aru itsuwari no shikisai
mou shimitsuki sugite itsu made mo nukenai
dou shiyou mo naku ibitsu na sonzai
kurutteru hodo boku ni wa utsukushii

itoshii mono hodo kowashitakunaru
minikui hodo ni mamoritakunaru
hitori demo ii omoi tsuzuketa
kawarihajimeta tsukiakari no yoru

dareka wo suki ni naru nante bakarashi sugite owatteru
uragirarerun da douse boku wa kono mama

mou takusan nan da itsuka mita hikari
oikakete mite itsukushimun deshou
mou utaenai to iidasenai ikari
kuruoshii hodo boku ni wa itooshii

kanaerarezu ni chirakatta yume
hiroiatsumete mou ichido aruku
Just trying to put on a smile, all of them could be fake
yayakoshii ningen sore demo ii

me wo samashite mo ugokezu ni okiagarun da ima sugu ni
uragitte yarun da sou sa boku wa kono mama

mou takusan nan da itsuka mita hikari
oikakete mite mo ikisaki wa mienai
shitto ya itami to ii kyori de itai
kurushii kedo boku ni wa choudo ii

nanika ga yaburete hanatareta kanata e
nokosareta mono mo jibun no uta wo utae
doko ni ite mo itsuka wa owarun datte
tsukiakari sashikomu yami no iro

doko ni demo aru itsuwari no shikisai
mou shimitsuki sugite itsu made mo nukenai
dou shiyou mo naku ibitsu na sonzai
kuruoshii hodo boku ni wa utsukushii

English Translation

Fake colors, so ordinary
Stained too long to wash them away
Outrageously weird one
Craziness is more beautiful to me

I wanna destroy what I am crazy for 
Ugliness makes me want protect more
Kept thinking I am OK being alone
I was changing under the moonlight

So foolish to like somebody, So lame
I will be betrayed, I will be the same

I had enough, the light I once saw
I will chase it to cherish
The rage from not saying I can’t sing anymore
You are madly adorable to me

Scattered dreams that I could not make come true
I will pick them up and walk again
"Just trying to put on a smile, all of them could be fake"
I’m complicated and it’s OK

Can’t move after waking up, get up right now
I will betray them, yes I will

I had enough, the light I once saw
Chased it but can’t see the destination
I wanna keep right distance from jealousy and pain
It’s tough but just enough for me

Something broke out, thrown far ahead
Sing your own song, people left behind
There will be an end anyway, no matter where you are
The darkness cut by the moonlight

Fake colors, so ordinary
Stained too long to wash them away 
Outrageously weird one
You are madly beautiful to me

(from https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bzUOXxJWzOY)