Takayan – Depressed because of you Lyrics + English Translation

“Depressed because of you” is the 1st track from the “Depressed because of you” digital single released by Takayan. It was released on July 19, 2020.

Details

• Title: Depressed because of you
• Also Known As: Mawari wo Ki ni Shite Utsu ni Naru (周りを気にして鬱になる)
• Genre: Hip Hop, Rap
• Language: Japanese
• Released: July 19, 2020
• Performer: Takayan
• Composer: Takayan
• Arranger: Takayan
• Lyricist: Takayan

Lyrics

koko made iki shite otsukaresama
ii yo, jinken nante sonzai shinai
sudeni shisen ni korosareta
akarui boku mo kubi wo shimeta
"hontou ni ii no? sore de"
shinzou no kodou wa kowareteru no
kokoro no soko kara warattetai yo

subete mendoukusai
mou daretomo kakawaritakunai yo
hometa ura de wa
kageguchi matsuri shinyou dekinai yo
uze shi daikirai
demo sonna boku ga ichiban kirai na no
sono ikioi de ii
"utsu" kara wa nigereba ii kara.

"nan no tame ni ikiteiru no?"
"omae nanka no dorei janai no"

hajikeru you na deai mo naishi
maa deatta toko de komyushou dashi
akogare ni mo oitsukenakute
atama no naka de nodo wo karashite

kyomu ga shinyuu
oya, kattaa naifu
jirai de kutsuu
saitei no futsu
kyomu ga shinyuu
oya, kattaa naifu
jirai de kutsuu
jibunnari no tanoshimi kata de mondai nai

subete mendoukusai
mou daretomo kakawaritakunai yo
hometa ura de wa
kageguchi matsuri shinyou dekinai yo
uze shi daikirai
demo sonna boku ga ichiban kirai na no
sono ikioi de ii
"utsu" kara wa nigereba ii kara.

English Translation

You lived until now, good job.
Well, "human right" never existed.
Being killed by other's eye.
They hanged me, who used to be energetic.
"Are you sure?  Having a life like that?"
My heart is broken and stopped beating.
I want to laugh from the bottom of my heart.

Everything is too troublesome.
Don't want to connect with anyone, anymore.
Even if they praised me,
they talk shit behind me.  Trust no one.
Annoying, disturbing, I hate you.
But my most hated thing, is myself being like this.
Just leave it like this.
How great would it be, if I can escape from my depression.

"What am I living for?"
"I'm not your slave."

Never encountered people who can set me free.
Well, even if I met someone, communication disability.
Not able to chase after anyone.
I can't come up with any word in my mind.

Void is my best friend.
Cutters are my parents.
Fed up with mine sweeping.
"Acting normal", it's the worst.
Void is my best friend.
Cutters are my parents.
Fed up with mines weeping.
Just make yourself happy.  However you want.

Everything is too troublesome.
Don't want to connect with anyone, anymore.
Even if they praised me,
they talk shit behind me.  Trust no one.
Annoying, disturbing, I hate you.
But my most hated thing, is myself being like this.
Just leave it like this.
How great would it be, if I can escape from my depression.

(from https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2GlRd3i6L4M)