amehurashi - complex syndrome Lyrics + English Translation

コンプレックス症候群　
笑われ者だね

朝が怖いのは 鏡とにらめっこ
ああ ぐちゃぐちゃの髪をなでても 変わらないし
雨が降ればいいのにな 顔を隠した傘ああ ごめんなさい
生きてることすら 汚い 汚いんだ

痛いよ 視線の雨が胸に刺さるんだ
言い訳ばかりのじぶんが嫌になって
能天気なアイツらが なんで笑ってんだ？
だれもいない日陰のなかで ああ 声も出せないまま

愛されたいな
とびっきりの笑顔で 輝きたかった
せめてあの子のように笑えたら
「ひとりぼっちじゃないよ」なんて バカにしないでよ
優しさに殴られて 息もできないから
キミにも雨が降るといいな

コンプレックス症候群 
笑われ者だね

明日が怖いから 夜も眠れないんだ
ああ ぐるぐると考えて どうせムダなのに
いつからか分かっていた「可愛いよ」なんて 嘘つき
ああ 落書きのような顔して 不快 不快だ

違うよ 気づいた時には もうおそかった
痛いコトバに笑顔すら歪んじゃって
能天気なフリして 生きてみたかった
だれもいない日陰のなかで　置いてけぼりなんて嫌だよ

愛されたいな
とびっきりの笑顔が いつも憎かった
愛され顔が脳裏に焼きつくんだ
「キミならやれるよ」なんて バカにしないでよ 
無垢な優しさが ほら また胸を刺すから
もう逃げ場すらもないんだ

コンプレックス症候群 治せないまま
失敗作でごめんね

konpurekkusu shoukougun
waraware mono da ne

asa ga kowai no wa kagami to nirame kko
aa guchagucha no kami wo nadete mo kawaranai shi
ame ga fureba ii no ni na kao wo kakushita kasa aa gomennasai
ikiteru koto sura kitanai kitanain da

itai yo shisen no ame ga mune ni sasarun da
iiwake bakari no jibun ga iya ni natte
noutenki na aitsura ga nan de waratten da?
daremo inai hikage no naka de aa koe mo dasenai mama

aisaretai na
tobikkiri no egao de kagayakitakatta
semete ano ko no you ni waraetara
"hitoribocchi janai yo" nante baka ni shinaide yo
yasashisa ni nagurarete iki mo dekinai kara
kimi ni mo ame ga furu to ii na

konpurekkusu shoukougun
waraware mono da ne

ashita ga kowai kara yoru mo nemurenain da
aa guruguru to kangaete douse muda na no ni
itsu kara ka wakatte ita "kawaii yo" nante usotsuki
aa rakugaki no you na kao shite fukai fukai da

chigau yo kizuita toki ni wa mou osokatta
itai kotoba ni egao sura yuganjatte
noutenki na furi shite ikite mitakatta
daremo inai hikage no naka de oitekebori nante iya da yo

aisaretai na
tobikkiri no egao ga itsumo nikukatta
aisare kao ga nouri ni yakitsukun da
"kimi nara yareru yo" nante baka ni shinaide yo
muku na yasashisa ga hora mata mune wo sasu kara
mou nigeba sura mo nain da

konpurekkusu shoukougun naosenai mama
shippaisaku de gomen ne

Complex syndrome
Who is a laughingstock?

I dread the morning. Cuz I have to gaze me in the mirror
Brushing my messy hair won't change it
I wish it would rain. I can hide in the umbrella to cover my face
Forgive me
Even living is dirty and guilty.

It hurts,  the stare like rain stings my chest
I'm sick and tired of making excuses
I envy that girl laughing with carefree
No one listen to my words cuz I'm in the shade.

I wanna be loved
I wanted to shine with the most beautiful smile
If I could at least smile like that girl
"You're not alone"? Don't make fun of me
That innocent kindness will make me miserable
I hope you notice.

I've got complex syndrome. A laughingstock is me.

I'm afraid of tomorrow. That's why I can't sleep at night.
I can't stop thinking about it even that's worthless.
I always knew your word "Cute" was a Lie
Yeah, my face look like a doodle. It's disgusting. It's shameful.

By the time I realized it, it was too late.
The painful words deformed my smile
I wanted to live my life pretending to be carefree
Don't leave me in the shade with no one around

I'm afraid of alone.
I wanted to smile perfectly like her.
It's impossible for me. I couldn't do that.
"You can do it"? Don't make fun of me 
That innocent kindness will stab me in the heart again.
I don't even have a place to run anymore.

The complex syndrome is incurable.
Forgive me for being a failure