Lenny code fiction - Bibouroku Lyrics + English Translation

jinsei no taion ga joushou to kakou kurikaeshiteiru
kangaeru koto ga oosugita sei de yuuhi nanka ni namida suru

risou wo tazuneru tabi, kunou ya kurou no fukusayou
tsuyosou ni mieru tsuyogari dake ja
kokoro wa tsukareru rashii
nayami no ooi nichijou wo kiratte ongaku de naku keredo
supuun ippai no yasashii hibi wo omoidashite ikiteiru

te no naka ni aru imi no aru sabishisa ni
hitori, makenakatta hibi wo
wasurezu ikiteitai dake
te wo nobashite mo todokanai
akogare ga teki ni mietari mo suru kedo
boku wa boku wo mamotte iku

yowasa nante miserarenai
sonna ganko na seikaku demo
tatta hitonigiri yasashii hibi wo hokorashiku nigitta mama
ikiteiru

daremo shiranai, shirienai sabishisa ni
hitori, makenakatta hibi wo
wasurezu ikiteitai dake
te wo nobashite mo todokanai
akogare ga teki ni mietari mo suru kedo
hibi wa hibi wa

kore kara mo sou, tsuzuiteku shi
fukou mo ooku otozureru shi
kanashii koto dake kazoeteiru to
yasashisa wo minogashiteku shi

mata
boku ga boku wo kirai ni naru toki ga kuru ki ga suru kara
supuun ippai no yasashii hibi wo kakitomete shimatte oku

Life’s temperature keeps going up and down
I cry at sunsets ‘cause I’ve got too much on my mind

The more I ask about ideals, the side effects of suffering and hardships reveal themselves
But acting strong just to appear strong
Apparently strains the heart
I cry by listening to music ‘cause I hate my problem-filled daily life
But I live by remembering a spoonful of days of kindness

Meaningful loneliness I hold in my hands
Alone, those days I never gave into it
I want to live by remembering them
Unattainable, though I reach out with my hand
My yearnings sometimes feel like the enemy
But I’ll protect myself

Can’t show any sign of weakness
I’m stubborn that way
All alone, I proudly hold onto a handful of tender days
As I live

Loneliness no one else understands - is capable of understanding
Alone, those days I never gave into it
I want to live by never forgetting them
Unattainable, though I reach out with my hand
My yearnings sometimes feel like the enemy
These days, these days

Will continue, hereon forth
Misfortunes will come by the dozens
But if you only count the sad things in life
You’ll miss out on the kindnesses

Once again
I have a feeling there’ll be times I hate myself, so
I’ll hold onto this spoonful of days of kindness